READ WHAT WANDA WRITES.....

ANOTHER POST BY MILTON:

For new readers to this site, I am writing since Kristy's battle with a GBM brain tumor and her passing on July 21. Kristy made me a romantic so I write to share christian love stories.

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Today Wanda has written her thoughts on our new love and how God confirmed it in her heart and mind. She is a very committed believer and is diligent about her walk with God. It has amazed me how patient, mature, thoughtful, and kind she has been in this whole process of developing a friendship and a loving relationship--all while I write on this blog and the blogworld comments. 

My Mom mentioned to us last week that Wanda is a very special lady. Mom said, "Few people have the ability to walk through the last few weeks as Wanda with grace and dignity as Wanda has." 

I called Wanda. She did not call me. God put it into my heart to call her probably much sooner after Kristy's passing than I would recommend to others as a pastor, but God led that way and it was confirmed by family and godly counsel. 

But Wanda also faithfully listened to the Lord and followed His leading for her life. I admire her and am grateful that God brought her to me.

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Here is what Wanda has to share:

After my husband passed away, I really had no desire for another mate.  Because of my great love for Jim, I had no desire to remarry as I felt that I would never be able to find anyone else that would be as great a husband and a father to our children  like Jim was. People told me that I would find someone else, and my comment was always that if it happened God would have to send him to me as I would not be out looking.  During this time in my life I just remained still as the Lord had told me,  and prayed  for the Lords guidance and direction in my life.   I had become comfortable with single life and felt that if this is what God had that it was okay with me.

Four years after my husband’s passing, I took a trip to New York with our current Pastor and his wife and the Lord used them to minister to me and help me realize that it was okay to move on with my life.  Sometimes the Lord just has to get you away to speak to you.  After I returned from this trip I finally realized that I had fulfilled my vows to my husband – till death do us part and that it was Okay to move on in life.  At this time I did change my prayer and began to pray that if the Lord did have someone for me that I was open, but that He would have to send him to me as I had said before , I would not go out looking.  

When Milton called me the first time I was surprised.  He told me that He felt that I had a need and he felt led to call me to see if he could help me.  

In my mind my first response was, "Yeah, right!"  

As we continued to talk during the next several weeks  I realized that maybe I did have a need.  I actually had someone to talk to at night and I was beginning to enjoy that.  I knew that God was beginning to do something in my life.  Milton had not shared with me any of the other stories, only what Kristy had said about us.

I began to really seek God in prayer as I did not want this to go any further if it was not His plan.  I went to church on a Wednesday night and our Children’s Pastor spoke that night on “I Surrender All.”  The scripture she used was the same one that God had been speaking to me right after Jim’s home-going, “Be Still and Know that I am God.”    I knew at that moment that God was fixing to do something special in my life and He prompted me again to Be still and listen!  

That is exactly what I did and the Lord began to give me scripture after scripture to let me know that Milton was the one  that He was sending  into my life.  One scripture was Jeremiah 29:11 – "For I know the plans I have for you and through this scripture he let me know that through my pain, suffering and hardship that he was about to see me through to a glorious conclusion."  

The morning after Jim’s passing the Lord gave me the scripture Philippians 1:12 “Now I want you to know brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advanced the gospel.”  This was such a peace to me as I knew that the Lord was going to use his death to further the Kingdom.  I have already seen this scripture come about in my family, within co-workers that  worked with Jim, and personal friends. They saw the life that Jim lived and realized that it could be taken away at any time and they wanted their life to count as Jim’s had.  

After talking with Milton and realizing that I was falling in love with him, the Lord brought this scripture back to me and let me know that through us, Milton and I, that this scripture was going to be fulfilled even further.

Another confirmation that all was going to be OK was I had gone to church on a Sunday morning and during worship I had strong urgency to go forward and get on my face to pray concerning all that was transpiring between Milton and I.  The Lord spoke to me and told me that this relationship was like a puzzle and that He was putting it together piece by piece and that when he completed it was going to be one beautiful picture.  That  was what I needed to let me know that Milton was the one that the Lord was sending into my life.  

After we had been seeing each other for several weeks I shared with my children about what all the Lord had told Milton, Jennifer, Julie and Norma.  My daughter then began to weep and told me that she had felt for some time that Milton and I would be together. There were many more affirmations that the Lord gave me. My pastor told me that the Lord had to give me this many to let me know that it was okay to move on with my life.  

And that is exactly what I am doing.