Thursday, February 07, 2008

HERE I SIT SO WEAK AND WEARY

Here I sit so weak and weary,
Plans dismantled
Fever's raging,
Fever's raging, fever's raging
As if kindling, lit, consumes me.

Try to write, must stop and layer
Shivers shake me
Shivers shake me.

***

A coolness comes.

***

Discard layers
Fly to writing,
Time is wasting,
Time is wasting.

Need a word.
Cohesive thoughts.
Nothing works, nothing works.

Gradation?
Seaching, searching.
Pages fly.
Cannot find it, cannot find it.

Time, time, there's little time
When weariness controls the mind.

More searching.

***

A writer's shame,
No word comes through.
What to do?
What to do?

Struggle, struggle.

***

Ah...

***
Cannot write without a struggle.
Cannot read with fluidation.

***

This article/post took seven hours at the computer.

No more marathons.

21 Comments:

At 11:42 PM, Blogger Janet Lee Barton said...

Dear Kristy,
I'm praying that the fever and chills give you a break soon and that you sleep well and peacefully tonight. I pray that tomorrow the writing and reading will become easier for you. I pray that your pain eases. I know God is with you. No one can read yours or Milton's posts and not know that. You are an inspiration to us all.

 
At 12:21 AM, OpenID GinnyFJG said...

Hi Kristy, Jerry, Mamma Mickey, myself, and others of us are also praying you will find a respite from the chills and fever very soon. I; myself have been under the weather for just over (2) weeks with what started as a mid-Winter cold; but soon manifest into a nasty bout with bronchitis. I am thankful to Almighty God and Precious Savior Jesus for giving me such wonderful family and friends to care and pray for me; as I am sure you are as well. I am well on the way to getting over this; and you are always in prayers and good thoughts with those who know and love you so very much and all of your family too. God bless you; my dear friend. May He bring more comfort and better sleep each time you put your head to rest at bedtime. For you deserve to have such sweet dreams, because you truly are one beautiful lady.

 
At 12:53 AM, Blogger DayleShockley said...

Hang in there, dear Kristy. I believe with all my heart that you're going to feel much better soon. We are bombarding heaven on your behalf.

 
At 12:54 AM, Blogger Daughter of the King said...

I am my keyboard typing...
please dear God,
Heal her, heal her

type type the keys are clicking
restore her Lord
restore her Lord

Comfort Lord,your arms your Love
Hold Her, Hold her.
Cool her, soothe her
hold her hold her
She's yours Lord.

From Deby to dear Kristi

 
At 4:12 AM, Blogger squiresj said...

Cheryl Wyatt said to stop by and say "Hi". I'm a part of newsletter group. I'm also a Christian.
Father I come to you right this minute and I pray for Kristy. I pray you heal her of this brain tumor. I pray your spirit touch her as she reads this. In Jesus name, Amen
To encourage you I want to let you know God healed a Deacon in our church of a brain tumor and they did not think he would make it. That was 3 or 4 years ago and he is doing fine. God be with you.

 
At 7:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"There is peace in the midst of trouble
There is peace in the midst of the storm
There is peace 'tho the world be raging
In the shelter of His arms."

"When I am weak, then am I strong"

May you be strengthened with might by His Spirit in the inner man.

May the God of all peace give you peace & strength & rest & energy & grace .
love ya, Kay Daniels

 
At 7:54 AM, Blogger Pam Meyers said...

Kristy, I pray that you had a peaceful night. I'm praying God will release you from the pain, fever, nausea. Let you write.

Thank you for the effort you put into that post. Seven hours. Wow!

Love and prayers!

 
At 8:46 AM, Blogger Barbara said...

Praying for a breakthrough today.

 
At 10:11 AM, Blogger Robin Bayne said...

Even when you can't post, we will be here for you.

 
At 10:55 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Kristy,

May God our Father and Jesus Christ our Lord show you his kindness and mercy and give you great peace of heart and mind. (1 Timothy 1:2)

We continue to pray for you, Woman of God, and for your beautiful family.

With love always,
Nancy

 
At 11:09 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Bear ye one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ."

That's what friends far and near are doing, Kristy. May you feel treasured and held steady on the wings of prayer.

 
At 11:59 AM, Anonymous Patti said...

Dear Kristy,
We don't know each other at all but I am praying for you. I've read about you and know that you are a very special lady who is loved by many. One of my favorite "comfort verses" is Psalm 61:2. God bless, comfort, and heal you, Patti Moore
Stockbridge, Georgia

 
At 3:18 PM, Blogger Debby said...

Kristy, I will continue to pray for you--for peace, comfort, and rest. You've always been special, and even after all you've been through, you're still the kind of woman I aspire to be. Much love and many hugs.
Debby Mayne

 
At 5:12 PM, Blogger Janice Thompson said...

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At 5:14 PM, Blogger Janice Thompson said...

Hi Kristy,

As I read through these many posts, my heart is so overwhelmed. I'm particularly struck by your daughter's thoughts. And your husband's. And yours. What I see are three people who, despite overwhelming obstacles, manage to maintain their faith. It's pretty amazing, really, to see just how strong all of you are. I know (having been through several losses of late) that you're probably reading this and thinking, "If she only knew how strong I'm NOT." I do know that you're facing a lot of "real" down moments. But what sings through your fingertips are words of faith. These are part of the legacy of Kristy Dykes - singing, praising fingertips. The Holy Spirit is alive and well in your words. And God is so pleased with you. . .with ALL of you. You have my prayers and my thoughts are with you and yours as you continue to "sing this song" together. Love you, hon! - Janice

 
At 5:28 PM, Blogger Rose McCauley said...

Dear Kristy, your writing is such an inspiration to me. Know you are in my prayers throughout the day and night. love, rose

 
At 7:48 PM, Blogger Ane Mulligan said...

What a beautiful, haunting poem, Kristy! And I mean haunting in the good way. ;) I love it, knowing it paints your struggle, yet somehow, I think it shows how you write even before GBM brain cancer. You've always strived for the perfect word or phrase.

 
At 9:05 PM, Anonymous Carrie Turansky said...

Dear Kristy,
I am praying for you tonight, asking God to wrap His arms of love around you and give you grace you need. He loves you so much and so do we. All over the world prayers are going up for you - a chorus of heart cries for your healing and peace of mind and heart.
I'm sending love and a hug from NJ,
Carrie

 
At 10:32 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

To a beautiful and gracious lady:

May the Lord protect, preserve and sustain you as you walk through this season in your life.

You are loved and I appreciate your friendship and kindness to me and my husband.

Lord, give this precious daughter rest tonight and bring healing to her body I pray in Jesus name.

With much Love,
LaDonna
North Port

 
At 11:11 PM, Blogger Cyndy Salzmann said...

Dear, sweet Kristy,

My heart is breaking for you and I know God hears the prayers I can only groan, With my love, dear sister,

Cyndy

 
At 2:24 PM, Blogger Gina Holmes said...

My sweet friend, I'm sending a hug. My God, give her comfort, peace, energy, and healing. Lift her spirits and let her know how loved and special she is. Encouragement Lord, oh please.

 

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