Monday, July 21, 2008

TOO MUCH TO TELL

Milton, here for Kristy:

From the beginning when Kristy asked me to write for her as she recovered from brain surgery, I have felt words pushing out my fingers. There are too many stories to tell. Kristy's gifts excel.

Several older ladies of respected life experience have told me that they had never known anyone as multi-talented as Kristy yet with such a gracious and serving spirit. Now, I know I'm romantically biased, but that is what has been said over and over by different people from different places who did not know what the others had commented.

For thirty six years we have shared life, romantic moments, children, family, special holidays and celebrations and parties and dinner engagements, bored trials and resisted temptations, failed and forgave and tried again, laughed and wept and worshipped and grown in His knowledge together, enjoyed church ministry, fun trips and vacations, countless walks and bike treks, ventured into off the road places, met and befriended unlikely folks, picked up the fallen, pointed young and old toward the right direction, team spoke and preached, overseen untold banquets and seminars and varied church events, built homes and churches, counseled couples and mentored younger preachers, co-hosted radio and TV programs, written hundreds of published articles along with all Kristy's novels, supported each other's visions, driven hundreds of thousands of miles together to advance the Kingdom, flown thousands of miles together across America and overseas, camped, hiked, gone to the White House for a small group meeting, entertained untold numbers in our home, sacrificed and given over and over, pastored congregations and helped oversee the planting of some 100 new churches, supported missionaries and church planters, dreamed and dreamed some more, and this paragraph could go on and on........

Now I hold her hand longing for more....more moments.... just a few more words, a whisper....looking for a weak smile....a kiss....just a glimmer of assurance that I'm known and that she feels my love.

The meds are working and she is not in pain but it comes with a price for me....and for her. The price of distance and forced separation.

The tears have streamed. This is hard to write or describe for my feeble fingers ache as they push the words out, but I know that I will write more for there is more to be said. This lady's life will yet go to unseen places.

42 Comments:

At 12:26 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jesus wept.

Truly He is intimately acquainted with your pain.

 
At 12:47 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

A love as committed, deep, enduring and faithful as the one you two have shared transcends all pain, all darkness and distance, and all temporary separation. It's a love that is locked in your souls and ties you together for all eternity.

Her body is weak and resting, but her soul is alive and vibrant and full of love.

She knows.

 
At 12:49 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Saying many prayers to you and your family

NickyK

 
At 1:48 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know if might sound funny, but what sweet and lovely words Milton. One can feel your love and emotion in this writing coming right thru the screen. Though I have never met her, I am sure Kristy would love it! Please know that everyone is still praying and holding you both high up into the Healing Light. ~~~ Lori in California

 
At 2:20 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton,
I do not know you or Kristy but feel as if I do. I came across Kristy's blog back in November. I am dating a wonderful man who lost his wife to GBM 14 years ago. She was 33 years old and had three children ages 8,3, and 18 months at the time of her death. Thank goodness you and Kristy had time to do many of the things you mentioned. She was there to help raise your beautiful daughters. GBM is a horrible disease.
You have ministered to me through your blog many times when I have felt down or I was having a bad day. We don't always see the big picture but God does. Even though this is a sad time in your life he WILL use it for good. Kristy's contributions to publishing will live on forever. God Bless You and Your Family,
Karla
Jonesboro, AR

 
At 3:02 AM, Blogger Charlene said...

I am believing for a miracle...please believe.

 
At 7:23 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My father was in your situation last year, and my mother was in Kristy's. I can't go into details, but at one point there was proof my mom was aware of us and our love. Please believe me, you might not see it, but Kristy knows.

With much prayer,
A friend

 
At 7:38 AM, Blogger Pam Meyers said...

When I think of Kristy I always think of her bright and sunny smile, just like the sunny Florida she always mentions in her emails. She could be a spokesperson for your state.

I know that pain meds tend to dull the patient's awareness, but she can hear even if she doesn't respond to you. She does hear you. Keep whispering words of love to her. They will comfort her, encourage her, and keep her safe in the knowledge of your love.

And my the knowledge of our Lord and Savior's love surround you and the girls, bringing you comfort, encouragement and safe.

 
At 7:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for you all.

 
At 8:08 AM, Blogger Stephanie said...

Milton,
My heart goes out to you! You have a long, special list of memories with Kristy and I am praying that the list grows longer. I really like what the first comment said...Jesus wept. He knows all of your pain!

 
At 9:15 AM, Blogger Margo Carmichael said...

Oh, Milton, I would hop in my car, drive down there fix it if I could!

Praying, praying. May the Holy Spirit give you all a fresh infilling and the peace of His presence, and flood Kristy's body and heal her, in the mighty name of Jesus.

 
At 10:11 AM, Blogger Mary Connealy said...

I'm praying for God to hold your family in the palm of his hand, Milton

 
At 10:23 AM, Blogger Nana Trish is Living the Dream said...

I pray the Lord will comfort you in this stressful and painful time. We are all still praying for you. Much love

 
At 10:32 AM, Blogger Karen Eve said...

I know that Kristy is in God's hands right now, just as she has always been. I want to much to open up the computer in the morning and find the post that says the miracle happened, Kristy got up and walked. But I trust Daddy God and His will, even though my heart breaks. I am still praying and believing for total healing and for His peace and strength to continue to surround you and your family. And yet, I wonder what Kristy is seeing. I'm sure that the veil is very thin now and that she is seeing more and more of heaven.
Blessings,

 
At 10:50 AM, Anonymous Suzie Eller said...

praying for you today, and for your sweet girls

 
At 11:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

“Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.” Hebrews 12:12

“Encourage the exhausted, and strengthen the feeble.” Isaiah 35:3 NASB

May He be your abundant and sufficient strength today.

 
At 12:41 PM, Blogger DayleShockley said...

The things you and Kristy have experienced as a couple are but dreams in the lives of so many men and women--to share a rich and full life in harmony, with the one you love, doing the things that bless others and fulfill your personal dreams, as well. While it's heartbreaking, for those who know and love Kristy, and even for us who don't, to feel her slipping away, your love story continues to inspire others. It makes us want to draw closer to our spouses, to make needed changes, and to truly appreciate every single moment that we have together.

Thank you for sharing your journey. I know it hasn't been easy for you. Please know that you all are being lifted up in prayer.

 
At 1:18 PM, Blogger Carrie Turansky said...

Dear Friends,

You and Kristy have shared so much, and been so blessed to love each other and serve the Lord together all these years. What precious memories.

As several have shared, I believe Kristy is aware of your love, and it is a great comfort to her. And we know Scripture says nothing can separate us from the love of Christ...so I am trusting God to comfort Kristy as He continues to watch over her.

I am praying for you, Milton, asking God to pour out His grace into your heart and give you strength.

Love and prayers from,
Carrie in NJ

 
At 1:46 PM, Blogger Loving Our Homeschool said...

Bless you.

Praying for you,
Heather in Indiana

 
At 2:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for His power and presence during this painful journey. I know you feel the brush of angel's wings as they minister to Kristy with words and ways that cannot be expressed.

 
At 2:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton & Kristy,

You are both special people with a special place in our hearts. Our hearts were knit with yours during the time we served in the church at Bates Field together. You both will always be close to us.

Our prayers are continuously going up for you both, and for Jennifer and Julie. We love you all and are believing for God's own touch of miraculous healing.

We are also grateful for the Father's wonderful presence with you in your home during this time. He is keeping His promise to never leave you or forsake you.

We love you,

Randal, Barbara & Lauren Ray

 
At 2:51 PM, Anonymous Deborah Anderson said...

I felt my own tears as I read your post.

I know what you mean about the meds coming at a price. Like the others have said, though, Kristy can still hear you, feel you, love you. And from everything I've read about your lives over the months, that love is strong.

We are pulling for all of you, Milton.

 
At 3:24 PM, Blogger Kay Day said...

God woke me up about 4:30 your time with Kristy's name in my ear. I prayed for you both the best I could in my 2:30 fog. God heard. He answered. He always does.

 
At 4:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton, I felt your heart as you typed this morning. Your indepth description of your lives together was so touching, so sincere, so precious. I pray God's peace and blessing into your home this day. All of you are so loved and continue to bless others' even in your pain. I know you feel the prayers of all your friends and loved ones, those you know and those you don't know. May God bless you and Kristy and the family, Milton. We're pulling for YOU, AS ALWAYS!

Love and Blessings,
Cathy (TN)

 
At 4:14 PM, Blogger Patricia W. said...

This post brought tears to my eyes. I haven't known anyone with GBM but I've known loved ones who have suffered. It is never pretty or easy.

But God knows and He cares.

Praying for you especially now.

 
At 5:20 PM, Blogger Shana said...

sending so much love and prayers your way! shana in seattle

 
At 5:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I had a dream of Kristy, Julie and Jennifer!
I don't really remember the specifics, but I do know that it was your wife and girls and that it was beautiful!

Hoping and praying for a miracle!

Take care...

NickyK

 
At 7:29 PM, Blogger Arlene said...

I am in tears. Julie just called Lisa...I am her mom and have been following this blog and praying for Kristy.

My love goes out to the entire family.

Christ is with you.

 
At 8:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton, Julie, Jennifer and precious grandchildren,

We are all praying for strength, peace, and comfort for all of you. May the Lord hold you and keep you close to Him.

With much love,
The Scott family

 
At 8:37 PM, Anonymous Danna said...

Our prayers continue to flow for you. Know that there are brothers and sisters here in Concrete, Washington praying for God's comfort and love for you both.

 
At 8:42 PM, Anonymous heather said...

You don't know me, but I think of you and Kristy daily. More than daily -- multiple times in the day, I come and check this blog. Sometimes for updates, and sometimes I simply pick a random month and read about Kristy's happenings during that time.

One thing that shines through, that cannot be missed, is the love that is shared between you two. It is inspiring and is giving me lessons of my own. Kristy knows you're there -- your existence and love for her is as sure and constant to her as anything she's ever experienced. Just keep telling her you love her...she hears you.

My prayers are with you and Kristy and your family.

 
At 9:50 PM, Anonymous Harold Rand said...

Milton and family
We send our love and continued prayers!If there is anything we can do, please let us know!
Harold and Angela

 
At 10:03 PM, Anonymous Sylvia Thomas said...

Bro Milton,
What a tremendouslove story you & Kristy have written together! It is so beautiful to read of the many, wonderful memories you share.And it all points back to love...deep,faithful,sweet,overwhelming LOVE..precious...forever...LOVE...I am sure Kristy knows you are there. She can hear your familiar voice, praying for her, comforting her, she can feel your touch she has grown to know and love. She can smell you & she is comforted by your great love for her and your faithfulness to her in sickness and in health. We pray peace for you, in these agonizing moments, days, weeks..always, a prayer for healing for Kristy and a warm blanket of peace to rest over her...God bless you, Kristy,& your family. We are here for you if you need us. I will call you t-morrow. Lvoe & blessings, Sylvia & Mark Thomas

 
At 10:09 PM, Anonymous Joe and Lauren Pierce said...

Meemaw (Nell) called me ealier...Lauren and I send our prayers to you...we are here if you need anything..."He is strong when we are weak"

 
At 10:35 PM, Blogger Ann Closs said...

Milton, Julie and Jennifer,
May God give you strength and supernatural peace during this time. We all love you and we are praying for you. Jesus knows and keeps your tears. You are precious to Him and to us. Let Him wrap His arms of love around you in every moment.
We love you!
Howard, Ann and Adam

 
At 10:41 PM, Blogger Eileen said...

Praying in San Antonio.

 
At 11:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton, Julie, & Jennifer,
Words cannot express what lies deep within my heart tonight. I know you're hurting, and nothing seems to reach that hurt. In your times of deepest pain, God is there. You all are soooo loved and so precious to all of us who keep up with your daily posting. I pray PEACE over you, in the name of Jesus!

 
At 11:41 PM, Blogger ~~Deby said...

Praying....everyday...here in the Puget Sound/Washington...also for the Rapture FIRST...
Deby

 
At 8:18 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Milton, Julie and Jennifer, grandchildren and extended family:
We are so sad for you and are praying for strength in the days that lie ahead. Our love and prayers are with you all.
In Him,
Steve and Kathy

 
At 12:52 PM, Blogger Greg Johnson said...

Milton:

Becky and I are devestated for you and your children, but we rejoice in the HOPE. She fought the good fight. May we all do the same.

Greg Johnson

 
At 1:09 PM, Blogger Trish Perry said...

What a blessing for Kristy, Milton, that God brought you into her life to escort her to this day. No one could have asked for a more loving partner in life. You and your family are in our prayers. Kristy will be missed so much, and we look forward to seeing her again.

 
At 3:46 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I believe the heart knows, and your lady knows how much she is loved. God Bless

Donna B

 

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